f.r.i.e.n.d.s

People used to say that life is fragile

in my thought friendship is yet to be fragile

i admit that i got lotsa friends around..used to say hi or bye

but when it comes to ''close'' category.. i think i got ONE *my mom

she's the one and only which i think she is trust-able

one of my EX-bestie told me: "friends is usable"

i was like..huh?? what language is that???

and now i understand what does it brings

when people ask about my best buddies

sometimes or maybe ALL THE TIME i wish that i could say: "I HAVE NONE."

i know it sounds extreme..but that's how i feel

FRIENDSHIP should contain concern, love, the ability to share...etc

and the most important thing is it needs interaction

I admit that i'm not an ideal friend but i treated ALL of them sincerely

but what i got in return?

there's so many "one second" that i felt like crying right in front of them

i know i'm useless.. i used to cry whenever i met with problems

but.......i have no choice but to let it flow

i don't have friend to tell

i don't have shoulder to cry on

but i have my huggy + blanket

cause i'm not dare to tell anyone

parents? they'll ask who are they?

and next time when i say i'm going out with them they'll say DON"T GO!

and if i tell my boy he'll say this is what you can't learn from UNI!

well! just let it be..

I can't force others to treat me better

and at the same time i can't force myself to ignore them

this is LIFE

A WORD THAT KILLS!