家人+温暖=满足！我不再怨了。^^

今天，爸爸妈妈和二姐来监狱探望我
姐姐终于选择了一份即合心意，
且满足她事业与爱情欲望的一份难得好工！
明天就要离乡别境，
到一个属于他和她的地方工作。
祝她：一切顺利，早日结婚，早生贵子！哈哈
我的“主家席”有望了！
所以，今晚他们特地来监狱陪我吃晚餐
算是替姐姐送行。

这一顿晚餐对我的意义很重大
就象征着
我们这一家人都很注重彼此
有好事就会大家一起分享
除了另外两个姐姐
因为住得太远的关系
没有办法一起享用晚餐
唯有等待下次她们回来再一起庆祝
虽然不是什么大日子
可，它是我二姐踏入社会的第一步
对她的人生很重要

妈妈也特地带了爱心绿豆汤给我
在今天这个冷清的夜晚
它，给了我巨大的温暖
就好象被天神呵护着
有种幸福的感觉

每次她们要离开那一刻
总会想说：“我不要回去监牢待了，我跟你们回去！”
不过，人总是要长大的
爸爸妈妈不能够永远陪着你念书，工作，结婚，生子
不管身边有多少人跟我们有关联
我们终究还是需要一个人去面对一些事情

就像天主常说的：
孩子啊，人，总要学会独立！
不管发生什么事，要切记，
主，永远与你同在。

希望我能够坚强一点
希望我能够勇敢一点
希望我能够开心一点
这些希望，再加上一点一点的累积
能够使我成长
能够让我看清世界的丑恶
能够让我学会坚强地面对问题
我相信，依我自己一个人的力量
一定能完成我所谓的责任，梦想和一切！
姐姐加油！
自己也要加更多的油！！！

SNSD-new release

OH! (dancing on the ICE!!!)



RUN DEVIL RUN

最幸福的事

每次听这首歌都会有一种莫明感触。。。
很美的音乐，
感人的歌词，
凄美的唱功。
渐渐地，爱上它了。。。

The Magic

suppose to start studying
but..hand itchy..^^
after an exhausted day..
i found..make ups is a magic..
you'll see..

my eye looked BIGGER..a bit too fake..
nvm..i never knew i'll felt so uncomfort with the fake lashes..

put on eyeline below..
not to say that i'm crazy..
but..i felt uncomfort even with only the mascara..

spent few hours for the make up session..
ate few hours of my study time..
but..gained some experience on this..
which i'm so unfamiliar with..
okay..its time to get back to study..
chaoz~

"女生的痛，男生永远不懂!"

found this note in FB..
it voices out the aspirations of girls..


男生永远不懂，为什么女生会那么的依赖你，
那是因为她把你当做她的唯一，最信赖的人。

男生永远不懂，为什么女生在你不给她打电话的时候会很生气，
那是因为她想要听到你的声音，感觉你的疼爱。

男生永远不懂，女生为什么会爱生气，
那是因为她只是想要你来哄她，回味你们之间的温存。

男生永远不懂，女生怎么那么爱吃醋，
那是因为她爱你，而容不下一点你给其他女生的任何一点温柔。

男生永远不懂，为什么女生爱唠叨让你少抽烟，少喝酒，
女生也知道那不可能，但是她担心你的身体。

男生永远不懂，女生怎么那么多的眼泪，
那是因为她将所有的委屈都化做泪水，而把所有的温柔都留给你。

男生永远不懂，女生愿意为你东奔西跑、为你做很多事，
只是因为爱你，而并不是为了显示自己比你强。

男生永远不懂，女生会在很晚的时候打电话给你，不是不信任你，
只是突然很想你，想听听你的声音。

男生永远不懂，女生会想要知道你的一切，想为你分担事情，
那是因为她只想要自己是你最亲密的人。

男生永远不懂，当分手来到时，
女生那坚强的语言后面是多么的伤多么的痛！

男生永远不懂，分手后女生不是不痛，
而是痛到连看到你就会无法自拔！

男生永远不懂，女生的爱是那么深。一旦爱上就不能自已。
隐瞒的那么深，不要带给你困扰！而自己哭泣！

男生永远不懂，女生的爱！女生的爱脆弱又坚强，不要欺骗玩弄感情。
女孩狠起心来是不要命的。

男生永远不懂,当你说不爱她了。她不会缠着你。
只要你快乐，她愿意放开你。

男生永远不懂，女生在分手后那笑的背后有了多少的悲痛！

如果爱，请深深的爱她，对她负责，给她一生幸福。

如果不爱，请不要享受她的独爱，放开她，让别的男人来给她幸福。

不要挥霍爱情，爱情挥霍完了，就会挥霍了她的生命。

 

Letting go of someone Dear to you is hard

but holding on to someone

who doesn't even feel the same is much harder

Giving up doesn't mean that you'r weak

It only means that you'r strong enough to let go!

weird posing by WEIRDO

muAhaaaaahaaAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

suddenly found this pic which taken about N years ago..

what was i thinking???

wakakakakakakakkakakaakakakak..

erm...

yupe..

that's all..

xx-The End-xx

ON the light and make it clear..!

gone through room-keeping yesterday..
found this book-"让生命发光"

i wondered when did i bought this book?
so not-me..haha
anyway..thanks to the author-徐薏蓝
she said:"开阔的人生空间，快乐的自我成长"
seriously,
i don't really understand what does she meant by 开阔的人生空间
but i clearly understood what does she meant by 快乐的自我成长
i don't understand because i haven't found out the way to broaden out my life
but i guess i started to know how to live happily..
by syok sendiri i guess..>.<

she wrote many experiences which happened on and around her
i didn't really read through every pages
as in i don't really understand chinese in full
was wondering what is my mother-tongue actually?
english, malay, chinese, cantonese, hokkien, hakka...
only have half knowledge on them..pity me
 
get back to this...
there was a chapter with the title-learn to smile!
she said she looked at herself in front of the mirror
she don't like her face without smile
thus, her eyes smiled..
eer..i wonder how can i make my eyes smile???
and aren't smile is with our mouth/lips???
 
overall..enjoyed reading
it's kinda great remedy for me when i was in emo-mood
yeap...so...CHILL buddy!!!!=.=

梦想，我爱你！

曾经徘徊在梦想和理想之间
身边所有人都说梦想，发发美梦就好了
不要把梦和现实搞混
理想始终会是我们人类必须要选择的
我不明白！

梦想对我来说
没错！它是个美梦！
可，它也是我理想的一部分！
或许我是一个很容易受身边事物而影响的人吧
也可以说，我是个“跟大队”的人
爸爸妈妈姐姐朋友们说什么好，
我就会跟随他们的决定
这就是所谓的没出息，没品味，没主见的烂人

在这之前，我还深信自己的选择是对的
可是渐渐地，我发现我的生活开始不规律了
觉得身边的一切好模糊
自己每天重复着在我人生中
最讨厌，最不喜欢，最想逃避的事情

今天突然发现自己好可悲
人生只有那仅仅一次
活了二十年，
我得到了什么？我实现了什么？
我到底要的又是什么？
每次一想到自己的人生就会哭
哭得好像死了什么人一样
可是哭又能解决什么？？？？
哭过了，问题还是在牢牢地望着你
如果它是一个物体那该多好
至少我可以把它
按扁，烧掉，埋掉，毁掉或者扔掉它
免得碍眼！！！！
迟早有一天我会崩溃！！！

还要等待一年多的时间来完成我的烂学业
希望那时候，我会有机会实现我长久以来的梦想
机会不需要多，只要一次就好
之前错过了那宝贵的一次
真的很希望老天爷能够眷恋我
多给我一次的机会
真的一次我就心满意足了
到了那时候，
就算失败。。。
我也认了。。。！

M bank vs P bank

M bank sucks..
called for enquiries..
waited for around 20minutes still no respond..at all!!!
kept on saying:"our customer service line is busy..we'll get back to you very soon..please hold on.."
excuse me.. busy sleeping isn't?
P bank is far more efficient..
need not to wait for even 5minutes..

one more thing
M bank again
foreign fund transfer minimum amount RM250.00!?!?
erm.. if my friend only need RM50.00..how??
weird la wei..
means eventhough people need RM10.00 i also need to transfer RM250.00 to them??
erm.. allowance?? LAMEO

not to critigue
but i really going to burn down M bank
forced me to delayed payment to people..
so embarrasing...T.T
like RM100.00 also wanna owe them for so long..
duh!!!! "FIRE COME" - by princess sha -

P bank and M bank is only a code name

not aim at any bank in real life

don't sue me..>.<

it stopped..since the day you left

viewed your blog
feel distressed
your blog
your last post
your everything
never change
the only thing that is changing
your blog lists

your's
no new post
no alteration
no feedback
nothing

what i felt everytime after reading your blog
is
appreciate what i am having
do what i wish or hope to do
before the LATE appears
not in me..but others..

DREAM what you want to DREAM
it can even be a DIRTY DREAM
go where you want to go
be what you want to be
someone extraordinary in near future perhaps
Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do

I always knew

looking back on the tears would make me laugh

but I never knew

looking back on the laughs would make me cry

-James,I miss you-

LIFE is...???

Life is fragile

yet there were people spent time finding ways to end themselves

Life is short

yet there were people spent time regreting deeds

Life is miserable

yet there were people who seems enjoying

Life is unfair

yet there were people who act on that way

Life can be meaningful in ways

Life can also be meaningless in aspects

People who are suppose to be dead will hardly die

People who are suppose to live longer will die very soon

Life is........errrrrrr.......anything else?

someone asked me to define LIFE

i was stucked by my blankness

i kept trying to find out some theories about LIFE

but ended up with a smile

an embarassed smile

then i started to speak

erm......it's about LUCK???

he looked at me without word

i was like...erh!!!what did i said???

he started to smile at me and says

NICE MEETING YOU, LUCKY GIRL.

then he turned away..

i was wondering who he is..??

erm..why me??

do i look like someone who know how to define LIFE??

but thanks to him

because of him, i realised that i should read more..>.<

I don't know what LIFE actually is

 but for me

-LIFE is to Let It be ForEver-

F.O.O.D

felt so damn hungry after class

found orange, cabbage, latte, hotdog, egg........no more

T.T

miss my mom's cooking badly

how i wish that today is FRIDAY!!!

get back to this

had my first time peeling off ORANGE experience

erm.........

ewww..don't feel like eating

well..i've decided to cut another one

instead of focing myself to eat them

this is much more better

WOW!!!i'm such a genius

YUMMY~

here comes my evening meal

erm..added cabbage-hotdog-egg..

no choice..too lazy for rice-cooking

~flirp~

WANTING

i'm going to put you into my stomach on this saturday

tastiest ais kacang i've ever ate before

I'M COMING!!!